Tuesday, December 9, 2008

lost at sea


sorry for the lack of posts...since the prop 8 debate, i've been in a bit of limbo about what direction to take the blog.  i started blogging about the planning of my own wedding and the excitement just built as we won the right to get legally married.  then after our wedding, the election and the subsequent loss of rights became a focus.

then, the rallies, the community and the activism dominated the blog.  now, i'm not sure which way to go and feeling a little lost.  it's hard to post about weddings when the future of weddings is in question...i have to admit, it's tough blogging about weddings when i know most of my friends can't get married.  again, it must be said, i started this blog BEFORE we even had the right, but somehow it seemed so much more exciting then, i knew we didn't have the right to get married, but f*ck it, let's do this anyway...that was my attitude.  but i feel like it's a bit of innocence lost now.  i feel like i was on an emotional roller coaster:  we got the right and the excitement that came with it, then the strong feelings that came with losing that right and then my realization that there are so many people out in the world donating money and working hard to take my rights away...it all just gives me a bad taste in my mouth.  

i didn't want this to be a political blog and i wanted it to be fun and inspirational, but my bubble has burst...

so, sorry for the lack of posts.  i don't feel much inspiration right now.  i'm really just trying to figure out what direction to go in.

photo credit:  print from treatzone on etsy.

6 comments:

N said...

I can relate. I have no idea what my blog is about these days. It's a mish mash of politics, recipes, and things I want to buy. I need a central thesis.

Sara E. Cotner said...

Yeah, post-wedding blogging is difficult. We should start a club.

citysage said...

Any direction you want to take it Christina, we'll be right by your side for the ride!

Thanks as always for your sweet comments and for the smiles you send my way :)

christina said...

thanks everyone for the sweet words & support!! xo

Luis said...

I feel the same way you do! There has definitely been a drop in the amount of posting I have done. I think politics is just going to be permanently a part of our lives, and by blogging about it occasionally it shows who we are so clearly. For me it says to people who are reading who might be getting married "I'm like you, finding a florist and a videographer, but I have these other sets of worries that you may not have, like wondering whether my marriage will be legally recognized next year."

It humanizes us, and I think it shows that like everyone else, we are more than one thing. We are more than a wedding, we are our collective experiences.

Peonies and Polaroids said...

It's no wonder that you feel a bit lost now, I think I would too.

Whatever you decide to write about I'm sure your blog will stay as charming and lovely as ever. I particularly can't wait to hear about whichever honeymoon you do decide on!