Wednesday, October 22, 2008

sleepless night

i had a sleepless night last night.  i was up worrying--not about the usual finances, work or anything like that--but about what will happen if prop 8 passes!  and i'm such an optimist!  {patty calls me "pollyanna" most of the time!} but the thought of it really started to scare me a bit.  not necessarily because of our wedding, but i got scared thinking about what might happen next.  if a good citizen's rights can be taken away, what next?  i understand the homophobia and the "religious" issues--fine, have your opinions about what other people should and shouldn't do.  but the idea that some people out there don't support equal rights for all is just sickening.  our country wages wars for freedom--yet we don't guarantee freedom for all our citizens.  


Luis said...

I find myself feeling the same way you do a lot of the time lately.

I think I am really internalizing a lot of the negativity that's out there right now, and it's affecting my outlook and my well-being.

I think now is a really good time for us to breathe and try to put it all in perspective. We're doing everything we can, and that's all we can do. We're already legally married and they can't take that away from us even if prop 8 passes.

If prop 8 passes it will be very depressing, but I know after a few weeks I'll pick myself up off the floor and start busying myself with things again. It won't be the end of the world, and we'll just have to wait for some more old people to die and take their ideas with them. I know it's not ideal, but we will carry on.

christina said...

I know, Luis. Keep calm & carry on. I mean, before June we couldn't get married anyway--we'll all be ok. But until Nov, I'm going to do everything humanly possible to keep it from passing!

Adam said...

while I'm sad to say this, I feel the same way. Even though I'm not in California, so I don't see signs everywhere, it is talked about all the time.

The worst is when I mention that I'm engaged, (well intending) people asking what I'm going to do if it doesn't pass. It puts weird stress on a situations that shouldn't have any, and reminds me of the craziness that is going on.